I worked on editing and publishing a blog post for Cervivor, it is Cervical Cancer Awareness Month you know! #CCAM I worked on a piece about my story that someone is wanting to use in a project. I worked on finalizing the book Wylee and I have written. I also worked on my journal.
I had the idea yesterday while I was in treatment to start a group that focuses on Surviving & Journaling. At first I thought, just cancer survivors only, then I realized we are all surviving something. Many of us need the outlet of writing and it gets lost in our year. It gets lost in my time also I find.
So, I started the group yesterday. The group goal is a entry per week, so 52 entries. I have a personal goal of many more than that. Today I picked the topic that will be our first entry goal, it is going to be released in the group on Friday. I wrote multiple entries in my journal about the topic I am using. I wanted to try out a variety of types of journaling and you know what, I learned something new about myself in each of my entries even though they were based off of the same topic. I have so far used traditional journaling, letter writing (this time to Wylee), and bullet point journaling. I am hoping to do another entry about this topic as well. If you are interested in joining here you go!
I think there is something special about writing, although I do most of my writing on a computer it has been cathartic to do some pen to paper writing. Writing that doesn't have to be perfect or go in the perfect order. I did however want to share what I wrote about yesterday. It is a bit of a health update I had been avoiding.
Today I went to meet with my clinical trial oncologist. During my last scan we saw spots on my liver, the real concern I had was that the doctor I visited with two weeks ago seemed jaded and not concerned. All of my previous metastatic disease had been isolated to only my lymph nodes. However, my oncologist said something important to really make me think:
"Lymph nodes are just tiny little organs!"
I had been so worried thinking organs were worse than lymph nodes when in reality: cancer spreading is still cancer spreading.