We are exploring possibilities for treatment including radiation only or radiation and weekly chemo. I am scheduled to go in tomorrow and get more scans completed at 7:30 in the morning. My radiation oncologist will consult with the nuclear doctor to ensure that this newly impacted lymph node is in fact above the previous radiation level. If all the specialist agree we will start treatment as soon as possible. It seems each new diagnosis adds in a new specialist. I didn't even know the nuclear doctor existed before today.
I keep thinking, "now is not the time to be unique". My body seems to follow its own unique path. It shouldn't have been back according to all the lymph nodes removed and tested back in 2012 when I was originally diagnosed and had my trachelectomy. It shouldn't have been so aggressive to reek havoc when it did come back and was finally caught in April 2014. It most definitely shouldn't be back this soon post treatment, and yet it is back. I have to accept that it is in fact back and is time to fight again.
I have been kind of out of it today. My husband has been great today, he got to view the scans for the first time. He wasn't with me at the appointment when I reviewed them with my radiation oncologist the previous time. He took me to the Cancer Support Center near our house so I could touch base in there. I have tried a few times to really embrace the Cancer Support Center but I just can't get into it there. Last year there was a young adult group I met with but no one had dealt with cervical cancer and the loss of fertility. This year the young adult group has sort of died out, which is probably a bad term to use. I don't mean they have literally died just that they don't really meet as a small group anymore. The members meet in a woman's cancer support group weekly. I might try out the group, but I might continue my path with the support of my family, friends, and fellow Cervivors.
I have had the opportunity via Facebook to connect with a group of women who have dealt with "Teal" cancers. These are all cancers which impact cervix, uterus, vulva, etc. Recently I have been able to start networking closer to home. During my previous treatments I was able to "mentor" a fellow woman my age going through cervical cancer. We were able to connect at chemo and help each other through. More recently I have made connections through a series of networks which led me to the Cervivor site. I am so excited to be able to attend Cervivor School and make face-to-face connections with other women who have fought this battle! I am eager to really get involved in advocacy on a bigger scale than I have been able to at this point. I encourage any fellow "Tealies" to checkout Cervivor School and see if it is something you might be able to attend.
I always hope that my story can help women, of all ages, know what signs to look for and get support and/or treatment. I think it is important to understand the warning signs of cervical cancer and know what resources are available. It is time for me to fight, again. Let's do this!