I started out this treatment regimen with twelve spots of cancer. At the time of the PET scan I had completed three rounds of Carbo/Taxol chemotherapy. I have six scheduled as of right now. The scan results showed that eleven of the spots had responded to treatment and are getting smaller. The other spot, next to my rectum, has not yet responded to treatment. None of the spots had gotten bigger and there were no additional spots. This is all great news!
I think that I have been having a difficult time with the results. I wanted some areas to be gone. I wanted a more aggressive response. I just wanted more. I put on my happy face when people asked about the results and said "they are good, nothing new and most spots are shrinking." I said it, on loop. I tried to convince myself that it was enough. I am still trying to convince myself weeks later.
My amazing oncologist did give me positive news. I do not have to stop chemo at the end of the six scheduled rounds. He said there are three reasons that we would stop chemo: firstly, if I were too sick to continue; secondly, if it were to stop working; thirdly, if all the spots were to be gone. So, we continue chemo. We will do another scan in January and see how it is going.
Moving forward I am going to try and look at the glass as half full. The chemo is doing its job. The chemo has stopped the cancer from spreading or growing. The cancer is shrinking. These are all positive things.
January is coming, Cervical Cancer Awareness Month. My advocacy continues, my life continues, and my treatment continues. I am so thankful to have a doctor who continues to be concerned with my quality and quantity of life.