People always tells me that they think I am so strong, they think I'm an inspiration, they don't know how I do it. When I saw this quote today it made me stop and think. I am not any stronger than you would be. I am not any more inspiring than you would be. I also know, that you could do it too! It is all about your attitude. I never imagined that I had any other choice than to live life the way I do. I try to fully embrace life and have a positive attitude whenever possible.
Does that mean I am always positive? No. Does that mean there is never a time that I am worried that I am going to make the wrong decision during my continued treatments? No. Weekly, if not daily, I am concerned and wondering if the Avastin is working by maintaining the cancer the size it is and preventing it from spreading.
If you see or talk to me on a daily basis you know that I make jokes about dying, underneath those jokes are fears. Fears that the cancer is going to take my life too soon. Fears that my husband will lose me and my son. Fears that my son will lose me. However, I don't dwell on those fears.
A positive attitude is key. As I said, reading the following really resonated with me: Attitude is the difference between an ordeal and an adventure.
I plan to, moving forward, focus on my life as an adventure. Focus on my cancer as an adventure and not an ordeal.
I challenge you - make your life an adventure and not an ordeal. Focus on the small things as positive experiences.